Here is the baby!
Friday, November 12, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Freedom does NOT COME FREE
Veterans DAY!!!
I go to bed and how often do I say, Thank god i don't live in a war zone!?!
well the answer is simple, it's far to seldom. Maybe if a show, movie or song reminds me! (That's sad)
Life, love, laughter and forgiveness, to often disregarded and taken for granted!
Freedom isn't free, millions of people are dying for that very word!
How can you not believe in something, the word believe is synonym with god in my book. Believe in a better world, believe that there will come cures for cancer,believe you'll see tomorrow, believe you'll get to see your family next time.
I Honor all the veterans who gave me a birth state, who provided me with work, a justice system, schools and security.
(Might not be perfect, but you can feel secure)
I wish for people to believe and to
cherish yesterday, dream tomorrow and live today!
I go to bed and how often do I say, Thank god i don't live in a war zone!?!
well the answer is simple, it's far to seldom. Maybe if a show, movie or song reminds me! (That's sad)
Life, love, laughter and forgiveness, to often disregarded and taken for granted!
Freedom isn't free, millions of people are dying for that very word!
How can you not believe in something, the word believe is synonym with god in my book. Believe in a better world, believe that there will come cures for cancer,believe you'll see tomorrow, believe you'll get to see your family next time.
I Honor all the veterans who gave me a birth state, who provided me with work, a justice system, schools and security.
(Might not be perfect, but you can feel secure)
I wish for people to believe and to
cherish yesterday, dream tomorrow and live today!
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
words words, spoken to much or NOT at all, words. The truth is raw!
Whats said and whats not said, it all matters and in this day and age of unlimited and required communication, it matters tremendously.
Ever feel like you want someone to talk to, but you know you have to keep it inside.
There are things in life, no matter if they are doubts, worries, questions or dreams, you just cant imagine yourself speaking of to another. Maybe your simply worried to leave yourself woundable, open to hurt or victimized.
I swear sometimes you just feel so completely alone, that the world filled with people, begin to stop making sense.
Well hopefully with time, everyone finds someone who they can talk to, about mostly everything. The worries of everyday life, the troubles that come with them and that that someone will/might attempt to try to answer your questions with some kind of comfort.. Some things in life are not crystal clear and its nice to have someone to ask, to consult, someone who might not fix the problem parse but who will try to help you find your way to the answers.
Words have an incredible impact and humans are amazingly horrible of using them the right way. And im by god no exception.
Sometimes when you are in a crowded room you feel as if your all alone, Sometimes when your all alone you feel as if your in crowded room.
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On another note in the same Jessica song,
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In today’s world who has the time to take care of some one, I see myself as a person who’s pretty good at managing time considering everything I squeeze into it.
Which is why I have noticed i don’t have time to be a damn made, house cleaner nor a housewife, I cant be in a good mood all day everyday and especially if i don’t get what i need out of life in every way. I see all these plastic people on covers of magazines and on Tv who really have very little of life’s bundle of obstacles, not saying they don’t have theirs but they do have it easier then most everyday sufferers life me. I do envy their constant cheerful attitude and calm personality for every event, in some ways. But I feel sorry for the fact that they don’t get to truly appreciate life’s treasures. I see life as a ying and yang which balance echother out. You need the bad to see the good.
But how am I suppose to with two part time jobs, two different schools and subjects in two different city’s, manage to do anything, besides take care of me, when im "off". I cook (Cause I want a healthy life style and because I LOVE LOVE LOVE homemade dinners) I clean (Cause my parents imprinted that value as well as dinner) and i try to work out (cause it feels great), I make shopping lists (Cause no one fills the fridge, freer or cabins for me) and I get laundry time ( cause I have no one who does it for me, nor can I afford to buy new clothes as a substitute for washing, as I once did and its kinda the reason I now have so much clothes) all while balancing emotions and life.
- I swear this life, will be the death of me and that is in every way The TRUTH!
The sad thing is I blame me for my troubles, therefore if I had not brought them on me, I would not have them.
Everyone in this life needs some one, someone like a therapist, who doesn’t charge, who you can depend on and consult while having the security, that its all confidential, That no angry words spoken “in the moment” or unnecessary fights will open Pandora’s box and reveal all your deep dark secrets.
I wonder I really do, is it possible to have love and affection with a person you can trust and rely on and who will always satisfy you needs, all while enjoying life and pursuing a career, YOUR CAREER and managing the house and family?
Im young and unknowing about what life will bring into my life, but as im sitting here I come to type the words, that so long have been lingering in my head. Will I be able to pursue my life, completely becoming a forensic psychologist as I want, as I crave, and see the world, get to experience and have a husband and family, while it all being what I want it to be.
Honestly from the bottom of my heart, I don’t see it! I’m like most women, I want a family, I want a big family, and to be able to spend time with my children, but since I cant love what i don’t have (this fantasy dream world) I’m wondering if I want one. I feel secure in saying, having a family will "ruin MY life" I wont be able to have my passion for work, be surrounded by the psychology and criminals, all while having a loving family. One or the other WILL suffer. Why should "I" be the one to suffer? Kids take time and family is complicated.
Why would I give up my life!?
I live in a “democrasy” and I get to choose when and if I want kids. While im fighting biology.
How is it possible to squeeze in my life and my dream life all into one. I honestly think that most mothers have some kind of regret or resentment to their family. As much as they love their kids and family, THEY WERE THE ONCE WHO LOST. They should be given some kind of alternative world where they could do what they wanted to do while still keeping everything they gained in their family world/role.
The men were able to pursue their career if they wanted to and unfortunately most of them settled for a job.
How can it be so unfair? That men get to do things and woman have to bust their asses. In this damn age women work harder then men to get half way there and they are not supported, economically nor emotionally. Men are just different creatures that cant give the kind of true support women find from women friends. Isn’t it crazy.
Well im goal oriented and I will not settle. I will stomp over ever person if that’s the case to give myself what I need, want and deserve.
I will not settle for less, so watch out world here I come!
Ever feel like you want someone to talk to, but you know you have to keep it inside.
There are things in life, no matter if they are doubts, worries, questions or dreams, you just cant imagine yourself speaking of to another. Maybe your simply worried to leave yourself woundable, open to hurt or victimized.
I swear sometimes you just feel so completely alone, that the world filled with people, begin to stop making sense.
Well hopefully with time, everyone finds someone who they can talk to, about mostly everything. The worries of everyday life, the troubles that come with them and that that someone will/might attempt to try to answer your questions with some kind of comfort.. Some things in life are not crystal clear and its nice to have someone to ask, to consult, someone who might not fix the problem parse but who will try to help you find your way to the answers.
Words have an incredible impact and humans are amazingly horrible of using them the right way. And im by god no exception.
Sometimes when you are in a crowded room you feel as if your all alone, Sometimes when your all alone you feel as if your in crowded room.
----
On another note in the same Jessica song,
---
In today’s world who has the time to take care of some one, I see myself as a person who’s pretty good at managing time considering everything I squeeze into it.
Which is why I have noticed i don’t have time to be a damn made, house cleaner nor a housewife, I cant be in a good mood all day everyday and especially if i don’t get what i need out of life in every way. I see all these plastic people on covers of magazines and on Tv who really have very little of life’s bundle of obstacles, not saying they don’t have theirs but they do have it easier then most everyday sufferers life me. I do envy their constant cheerful attitude and calm personality for every event, in some ways. But I feel sorry for the fact that they don’t get to truly appreciate life’s treasures. I see life as a ying and yang which balance echother out. You need the bad to see the good.
But how am I suppose to with two part time jobs, two different schools and subjects in two different city’s, manage to do anything, besides take care of me, when im "off". I cook (Cause I want a healthy life style and because I LOVE LOVE LOVE homemade dinners) I clean (Cause my parents imprinted that value as well as dinner) and i try to work out (cause it feels great), I make shopping lists (Cause no one fills the fridge, freer or cabins for me) and I get laundry time ( cause I have no one who does it for me, nor can I afford to buy new clothes as a substitute for washing, as I once did and its kinda the reason I now have so much clothes) all while balancing emotions and life.
- I swear this life, will be the death of me and that is in every way The TRUTH!
The sad thing is I blame me for my troubles, therefore if I had not brought them on me, I would not have them.
Everyone in this life needs some one, someone like a therapist, who doesn’t charge, who you can depend on and consult while having the security, that its all confidential, That no angry words spoken “in the moment” or unnecessary fights will open Pandora’s box and reveal all your deep dark secrets.
I wonder I really do, is it possible to have love and affection with a person you can trust and rely on and who will always satisfy you needs, all while enjoying life and pursuing a career, YOUR CAREER and managing the house and family?
Im young and unknowing about what life will bring into my life, but as im sitting here I come to type the words, that so long have been lingering in my head. Will I be able to pursue my life, completely becoming a forensic psychologist as I want, as I crave, and see the world, get to experience and have a husband and family, while it all being what I want it to be.
Honestly from the bottom of my heart, I don’t see it! I’m like most women, I want a family, I want a big family, and to be able to spend time with my children, but since I cant love what i don’t have (this fantasy dream world) I’m wondering if I want one. I feel secure in saying, having a family will "ruin MY life" I wont be able to have my passion for work, be surrounded by the psychology and criminals, all while having a loving family. One or the other WILL suffer. Why should "I" be the one to suffer? Kids take time and family is complicated.
Why would I give up my life!?
I live in a “democrasy” and I get to choose when and if I want kids. While im fighting biology.
How is it possible to squeeze in my life and my dream life all into one. I honestly think that most mothers have some kind of regret or resentment to their family. As much as they love their kids and family, THEY WERE THE ONCE WHO LOST. They should be given some kind of alternative world where they could do what they wanted to do while still keeping everything they gained in their family world/role.
The men were able to pursue their career if they wanted to and unfortunately most of them settled for a job.
How can it be so unfair? That men get to do things and woman have to bust their asses. In this damn age women work harder then men to get half way there and they are not supported, economically nor emotionally. Men are just different creatures that cant give the kind of true support women find from women friends. Isn’t it crazy.
Well im goal oriented and I will not settle. I will stomp over ever person if that’s the case to give myself what I need, want and deserve.
I will not settle for less, so watch out world here I come!
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