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Rain Drops by 2Face Idibia
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Thursday, February 16, 2012
Me n my master work
Do you see my ducktaped mirror man am i good, :-)
So Saturday the kids want to watch melodifestivalen any and everyone is welcome
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Is it crazy or what, that i am enjoying selling all these things. Man its stuff that I don't use, isn't mine , was bought from an ex etc is now getting cleared out. I think that's good that the stuff will come to use some other place, suck the ex didnt just pick his *sssccheesnips * i wouldnt be here in the first place.
Well I guess life is taking a toll on me, I know I can take it but at times giving up seems nice, but then you see those puppyish eyes of his and that wet nose and clean kiss to show affection, He is so cute. haha
It really feels great to be able to clean my place out at the same time that the stuff I dont want here any more but my concience keeps nagging me to appreciate, but I think appreciationg can also be giving joy to other people
That is by far my favorite thing to do,give someone else *JOY!!!* make someone else happy, to be in the making and seeing how a little hand can build a city in no time just faith and that 'aha' expresion on their face.
Its rough making decisions at times, but then you stop, breath look around and say what do I want and what ever you answer yourself, you do it :-D
I know im preaching, those who know me in person know that im unfortunately with drawn from my outgound nature due to a bumpy road but i climbed that mountain!
I am standing looking out, As of right now in my life I want me and Dino the DJ (funny how its music im trying to paint a story of) music, music is my life Reggae that is. Might be a faze nut I dont think so, nope im stuck on stupid you migh say, but I pledge the legence to the Reggae (Sorry, not rastafarian, (yet haha) )
Its me and *The DJ*!!!!!
changes,
so i am officially seeking employment....
since i flunked last semester and am too far down under the ground right now, still not back to me I had to decide to quit school.
Guess god has his plan for me but right now i dont see it..
What did I do in a past life or world to be delt these cards in life... Im notr saying they are all bad or have been but as im sitting on the devils curb with the devils water beneath my feet im tempted to put a toe in I cant but help and ask " have I been through as much as I make it seem?" or is my life just as anybody elses?
How to compare how to do and ask the unabletoanswerquestions, I guess I cant ask that kind of question, but why God feel he had to test my strength , why did he fel I had to experience this, what is there to learn... I cant see it right now but I guess its as alot of other things in life youll get the answer to the question once the test is passed up to the teacher, post-hoc ....
Well right now I am selling all of the things that bring me down such as the ex boyfriend stuff, the past few guys havent been anything to keep memory's of or keeping their spirit around.
So, im dropping out of school, not what I want to do but right now I cant afford to loose my CSN privilege, but most of all I need to find myself... I need to get back to me its been about 6 months that things have been horrible and if Im gonna have any future with any strength I have to give up or loosen the tie just to be able to correct it and tighten it when its to my perfection.
I just hope I dont loose track of my self and my life, I have heard of it happening, if you drop out you dont go back, life is constantly changing and I dont want things to change to the point where I cant get myself back out of it, im thinking along family lines, I want to live my life to enjoy my time, but that leaves a lot of free time, well guess Ill find out what God wants me to do and go...
Im selling books, his stuff and ex bf gifts buy buy space takers....
Yesterday the Doggy was home alone in two sessions, first he played with rocks from the flowerpot and the second he found playing cards tasty. But that is still very good and im a very proud momma except that he ran away from me and almost got hit by a passing car due to his "homeboy" was across the street... well well they crossed the road so he wouldnt get killed, very nice of therm to do and im very thankful.
Im taking ADHD medication and on the evaluation list for it, I am hoping for the best!
I talked to my therapist and told her where I want my focus to be and we are going to begin this exposure therapy in a few weeks which was placed on hold due to the court and bs that j***a** brough on.
Well that is some information for now.
Labels:
ADHA,
I have ADHA,
I have PTSD,
PTSD
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Dino
This is my gift from god!
Everywhere i go, everything i do, he is beside me guarding n loving me!
This is my everything !
Labels:
Dino,
valentines dog,
valentines snakes
Monday, February 13, 2012
Tear drops of reality
On my dresser.... Well its a good thing, it always is a good thing.
So wh dies... Thats horrible and its make believe valentines i guess ughh what kind of low mediamarked is that.. but its cute for school kids n people in love... But people like me who simply love Me everyday will have to work Damn hard to make a difference.
I got of the phone with an uncle =) nice talking to him... Our conversation is the reason for the reality tears on the dresser which i had to lean on to charge my phone. He is great, he has been through alot and is still fighting Hard, wake up Jessica you can do it (=
Im really a girl with few tears but lots of emotions, guess they got bad connection or something cause once a month or six is fine by me, i love living by the positive view, laughing enjoying life alot more then focusing on negative, being around those people makes me me happy few tears filled with emotion when visited by
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