Love

Candle day,

So here and now is the begining of what i consider fall. Its cold outside, i got a sweater on and a dozen candles lit, to keep the heat in.

Right now, I have that amazing feeling inside, not simply cause Dino is as amazing as he is but there is someone else warming my heart and battling with the rest to stay on my mind.

~Listen to your heart and let your mind guide the way and success will be the destination ~ me

So after going through all the screws and nails I manager to put up two candle wall decorations (living room and bed room)and now it looks nice. Now I'm sitting on the couch with Dino in my lap about to continue reading " children and childhood". But I'm still thinking about yesterday,

Yesterday was a success, mom was happy, the food was great, lovely company and it was really nice being with the semi whole family!  The night ended with a nice walk and a first kiss.... :-) 

I can see your reaction, "a kiss" but you know what,  LIFE COULD NOT BE ANY BETTER. When real chemistry exists that tiny spark quickly evolves. I know how it looks and seems but when that person who for so long only was a dream stands in front of you, with that same spark, it all feels like a dream come true.    And fact of the matter, it is a dream come true.
Don't worry there is nothing that needs to be rushed and nothing that will be. This eternal flame is just that, eternal.

When that feeling has been missing for so long, it feels like life has returned when that feeling arrives.

Can't put my feelings into words but amazing sums it up quite nice. And you know what, I DESERVE TO BE THIS HAPPY!!

Live, love laugh and forgive every day!

Dont wait to do something tomorrow if it can be done today, for how can you be sure tomorrow Will arrive?
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Shazman & Bishop Wayne - Live at Tanqueray's in Orlando

Guess fall is starting to appear

Happy birthday mom!

So today is my mothers birthday and later it will be celebrated up at grandmas!

 

Happy happy birthday from me to you, I wish it was my birthday so I could party too, yup that one is stolen from the fiesta crew :-P, but still works.

Im swamped in work but Ill manage, I guess, I guess all these curve balls life throws are what keeps you constantly dancing around on your tippy toes. and I DO LOVE DANCING therefore I love life.

This has been one eventful week, filled with tears anger frustration and love. We never know what will happen and that is exiting. The doggy is showing signs of growing up and he is learning to behave on different levels. Me and the doggy have met another doggy owner who has an older confident yet tiny female and they are making progress in being in each others company and as for the humans, well there are feeling being awakened inside of me that I had forgotten ever existed. Especially after being stuck in rut in that dead-end friend-ship. And who knows maybe all that Spanish ive studied and been around so much will wake up and come to life.

All I have to say this lovely morning is that im thankful for being where I am and to have the blessing of having people with positive attitudes and a tremendous amounts of love around me.

As for now, coffee is done, breakfast is to be made, doggy to be fed, shower to be enjoyed and books to be barely read.  So fresh and so clean clean

 

Happy birthday mom!!!

We are now going to bed, my heart says thats the best thing to do right now. But my mind is with someone else. Yupp yup

SMILE, SMILING SMILING SMILING

I got a smile on my face that makes me look stupid and I LOVE IT !

AS OF RIGHT NOW I FEEL FANTASTIC, HAVENT HAD A SMILE ON MY FACE LIKE THIS IN OVER A YEAR. im flying on clouds :-D 

Ladder 49 Theme Song - Shine your light - with Lyrics - msa213

Time to manage!

Should I pretend that Im able to manage my time at this point and time?

Or should I realize time is managing me? and im just along for the ride.

No matter how good I plan things, Life at this moment is editing, resizing and zooming in and out and it feels like the "control" is lost and nowhere to be found.

So today was "tha day" and it went smoothly, I had my guardian angel by my side so it really couldnt have gone any better. I was nervous, but who wouldnt be when someone is lying up their butt. But my best friend besides GOD is Karma and it comes flying high kicking you where it hurts the most when you least expect it.

Today was a day to add to the collection of, ughh.

Im so sick and tired of all of this. BUT then I remember Hey jessica, god doesnt give you anymore then your able to handle!

 

After I got home and had been huged by an angel, I had promised the neighbor that I could and would help with some English assignment  and she treated me to a pizza and that was very very nice. I had a great time and really love visiting them and being able to see their kids grow up so such strong and amazing people. They are so much fun to be around. So thank you for the awesome conversations that really helped my soul and for the pizza!!!! :-D which I ate half of which is pretty darn good!

So I come home, 

I sitt down and make a serious attempt to try to read, try to study but that attempt was not with me this evening, maybe its with someone else who could pass it along to me...

One book was hard to read, the other book not interesting enough and then the power point slides wanted me to look in another book and I said to my yawning self, Jessica, do some typing and then go to bed. There is a new and yet scheduled filled day to adventure to.

So Im gonna say my prayers and ohhh the thought just hit me, im gonna do my Relaxation before bed, that is a great thing to do considering im suppose to learn this stuff. Breath in and Breath out, control your breathing and your tension.

Ok, so back to saying my prayers, ask jah to help me find the love and strength I need to overcome this little battle with the unknown/unwanted/unexpected and help me realize I have the strength and love within me. Shine your light on me. Ohh and that song is awesome, ill post it!

Everything happens for a reason, its true!

Cords everywhere, long and short, so not in the right place, and now its cleaning up time.

So my computer decided to take a dump, perfect. I dont have enough going on so its a good thing something that needs my undevided attention decided to die. Well the good thing is that it was "caught in time" Was able to gather save a few things which is more then Nothing. 

I wonder how many ways am I suppose to view things before things start cooling down in my life.

Tomorrow yet another eventful day and Im thankful Ill have my guardin angel to keep me calm, knowing that the inner tiger in me is FARRRRR from calm.

I thank you all who have helped me come down on earth, and realize all the things I have needed to hear and realize right now at this moment. Its crazy how simple words can do so much in time of need, when normally they "do so little" at random talk!

Thank you all!!! For those who stand by my side through these challenging times!

I appreciate your patience and understanding!!

Now im gonna say good-nigh!

I thank you for inspiering Me

So this is officially my first home cooked meal in 3 months that i wanted to make. I still dont have an aptit but ill get it down cuz its soo good. Maybe this will be a begining....

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Oh yeah i need to recommend the best dentist in Skåne!!!

I remember!

I remember this day ten years ago.

We had just moved to the states in late august. It was a new school, new world, new language, new friends.

I was sitting in 7th grade I think it was an English class. They made an announcement on the intecome and adviced all teachers and students to watch the TV. Our teacher put it on and it was like an action movie, we saw the plane crash into the building, fires raging and people screaming. I was in chock, unaware of the actual damage, unaware of what actually was and had happened. I remember my mom picked us up from school, me and my brothers asked if a plane had crashed into a building and the answer was yes. There was little known at that time and it took a a few days before every piece of the puzzle was in place. For a few weeks we had a moment of silence dedicated to the people who were affected by the event. There were teachers leaving students staying home. The world, the country was in chock!

Now I sitt here, listening to " DO YOU REMEMBER" and I do remember. All the tribute songs really get to me. Its hard for people to understand the feelings of sadness unless they were as affected as every single american was on that day! Sadness brought us together. 

I am grateful for all the soldiers in this world! I thank you all for the brave things you do and the strength you have. I admire you and I hope to meet a man as amazing as a soldier man is. I want a brave, respectful man who knows how to listen and loves life and understands romance and what it entitles. 

If it wasnt for the chance of loosing someone you love, I would want to marry a soldier.

Darryl Worley - Have You Forgotten?

Toby Keith - American Soldier