Should I pretend that Im able to manage my time at this point and time?
Or should I realize time is managing me? and im just along for the ride.
No matter how good I plan things, Life at this moment is editing, resizing and zooming in and out and it feels like the "control" is lost and nowhere to be found.
So today was "tha day" and it went smoothly, I had my guardian angel by my side so it really couldnt have gone any better. I was nervous, but who wouldnt be when someone is lying up their butt. But my best friend besides GOD is Karma and it comes flying high kicking you where it hurts the most when you least expect it.
Today was a day to add to the collection of, ughh.
Im so sick and tired of all of this. BUT then I remember Hey jessica, god doesnt give you anymore then your able to handle!
After I got home and had been huged by an angel, I had promised the neighbor that I could and would help with some English assignment and she treated me to a pizza and that was very very nice. I had a great time and really love visiting them and being able to see their kids grow up so such strong and amazing people. They are so much fun to be around. So thank you for the awesome conversations that really helped my soul and for the pizza!!!! :-D which I ate half of which is pretty darn good!
So I come home,
I sitt down and make a serious attempt to try to read, try to study but that attempt was not with me this evening, maybe its with someone else who could pass it along to me...
One book was hard to read, the other book not interesting enough and then the power point slides wanted me to look in another book and I said to my yawning self, Jessica, do some typing and then go to bed. There is a new and yet scheduled filled day to adventure to.
So Im gonna say my prayers and ohhh the thought just hit me, im gonna do my Relaxation before bed, that is a great thing to do considering im suppose to learn this stuff. Breath in and Breath out, control your breathing and your tension.
Ok, so back to saying my prayers, ask jah to help me find the love and strength I need to overcome this little battle with the unknown/unwanted/unexpected and help me realize I have the strength and love within me. Shine your light on me. Ohh and that song is awesome, ill post it!
