Its acctually quite horrible how one minute your on top of the world and the next at the bottom of the barrol.
It sucks,!!!
Living with someone has plenty of pros but or me, well it might be and or sound as an excuse, there are plenty of cons, espechilly when it comes to school work and cleaning.
My whole schedual has been throughn out of wack. Im not studying like i used to or following any of my scheduals which were kinda in "working" progress.
I guess its just another excuse as a result of yet another failure.
I don know what to do anymore. My faith is drifting my priorities changing and im lost, should I just give up?
Should I just quit, cnsidering im not getting anything in. I swear it feels like I understand but considering the reality of everything im quite a large failiure. What really is my biggest problem is that i didnt do anyting while in high school that gave me a foundation to work from when i enrolled in the university. I manage to miss that red line im suppos to leaar things from i manage to remember eerything that is unnecessary to even consider.
I want to have what it takes, just like it seems everyone else has. But what on earth can I do? How can I get there? I search the web for options for posebilities and some kind of hope that ill find something to help me, some how some way. but do i find something.... Maybe its right in front of me which is why I cant see it or find it. But as for now, this feeling of "wandering mind" is horrible.
I have no life, I work to pay rent, i obviously pretend to study and learn which is becoming quite useless. Mayabe im just not student material. I cant take it much more, im getting hit on the head more frequently then im able to take and handle for now. I know
The greater the obstacle the more glory in over coming it, is true but i cant pin point this obstacle so how can i over come it...
Im the one keeping me up, happy , focused and driven and im loosing it all, which will result in mass self destruction!
