Sashira - Santa Baby Video

Im so lost, far far away from me,

Kids came by and gave me Christmas spirit whilst giving me hope and joy for next year.

This kids really dont know how blessed i feel for having the honour to have them in my life.
Right now, while everything is falling apart like the ice melting ön this earth , they come with great spirit, im so blessed.

I thank god for my guardian ängel who really and trully loves me and watches over me, he had a gut feeling i was down and persistently called. He knew i needed to cry and be comforted, it is thanks to him i never feel alone.

While im falling deeper and deeper in this quicksand of depression im sure of the love he has for me. Im forever in debt to you my guardian ängel, thank you for caring enough to try to get a hold of me, while everyone else just withdraws themselves.

Thank you god for each given day, i need the strength,  i need motivation, i need that light in the tunnel to begin shining so i can stand up.

Being a hard working, single puppy-mommy is so difficult , while batteling life, accepting love and seeking motivation... Cleaning, shopping and laundry all done the traditional way with no time to take off the running/walking shoes...

How people manage to get themselves out of this, is beyond admirable to me, i cant dö it, im so tired of this battle, im so tired of fighting life, im tired of dining everything ön my own, i no longer have the motivation nor energy to fix the sinking boat whilst steering it away from potential harm... Im all out of energy,
Im beyond lost, i dont know myself like i used to...

So people that is it.
Im sad but my kids sure dö bring me back to earth...

And god thank you for sending me än amazing man, help me see through the smoke and guide me in the dark.
Im thankful, very very thankful for my boyfriend. Thank you for everything you dö, the love we share is special.

Oh and the doggy and kissing..

Swing Low Sweet Chariot With Lyrics

Swing low, sweet chariot,
Coming for to carry me home
Swing low, sweet chariot,
Coming for to carry me home

I looked over Jordan, and I what did I see
Coming for to carry me home?
A band of angels coming after me
Coming for to carry me home

If you get there before I do
Coming for to carry me home
Tell all my friends I coming too
Coming for to carry me home

I'm sometimes up, I'm sometimes down
Coming for to carry me home
But still my soul feels heavenly bound
Coming for to carry me home

Happy 4th of advent, check the sky for all the beautiful and shining stars.

Dont forget the Christ in Christmas.

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Nail doodle

Love the New hair, the new me,

John 14:20

At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.

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Luke 6:27-28

But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.

Corinthians I 15:33

Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners.

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From rsmh, 

I love it

Man, whatever she did, she did it well and it hurts. 

Titus 2:2

That the aged men be sober, grave, temperate, sound in faith, in charity, in patience.

Luke 11:4

And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us. And lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil.

So i did color my hair red and i like it, it looks something like this..

He is great,

John 14:27

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

So the yellow anacondas name is 'YA', YELLOW ANACONDA.

Today was One of those hold him a longer time, he was out with me over än hour. My long sleve'es took most of the bite marks, but he got One in there... Not bad though. He was in my shirt while i made food. I haven't had ya out and about like that, he usually pees and stuff, but was on a very good mood today, so i trusted him, didnt want to have him stay out past the good, so i put him in so the good vibe would be remembered to tomorrow, this domesticating  thing is fun you know taming a snake or as the non misleading would be , getting it to remember the familiarity of being handheld under my conditions, being held in which ever Way and simply trusting he wont bite me, he craweled around but mostly took it easy.....

During the night the mystery was revealed to Daniel in a vision. Then Daniel praised the God of heaven and said: "Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are his. He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darkness, and light dwells with him. I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers: You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you, you have made known to us the dream of the king."

Daniel 2:19-23

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Peter I 5:6

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

Isaiah 45:5-6 I am the LORD, and there is no other; apart from me there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not acknowledged me, so that from the rising of the sun to the place of its setting men may know there is none besides me. I am the LORD, and there is no other.

Micah 6:8 He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

They drew blod today, we want to see why im so tired.
It hurts, and i did not faint today which was nice suprise, guess my body and mind finally connected and teamed up helping me along the way cause they knew i had a lot to Do...

He is wearing a jacket tied with a belt, and a reflex-vest. Haha

I was soaking wet when i got home after.. shoes soaked, socks soaked , jeans cold cold cold and oh yeah soaked, Jacket soaked a winter jacket that is (which is suppose to  be water resistant ... Some what able to help) well it was no fun, i was cold and wet with an hour walk a head...

I needed to take my dog out once i got , so i put a jacket on him so he would be less wet after, and man did it help. I think he enjoyed it, it sucks to have a wet dog, so im lucky 

I couldn't even read the whole thing, tears were on their way...

Its so true

My breakfast..... :-)

Im filled with love and joy

Think people think

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My phone is by far been pimped, i love New updates....

Im thankful for my phone. I have so many apps and functions and they help me "catch the moments" i want.... I love life, there is so much good in the world around.

On a lovey dovey note,
People may say what they want about life, love and god but there is so much strength and positive energy and we , including me need to consider that if we choose not to take it or everything apon ourselves, we have the ability to control our self, our thoughts, to let go we can fully reach nirvana .. 

Im reaching nirvana.......my life, even though in pieces, is strong, durable, capable and able ....

Mistakes are lessons to learn from, to never repeat and to grow smarter and stronger from.....

2 Advent

So im trying to stay strong.... Im trying to get back that rutin i love so very much. I have started ön some of the many school stuff.
Getting back on track is hard and difficult when you feel so tired of everything and the strength to even get out of bed is needed to be gathered before the action can be done...

Thank you, gracias !

From Mr.A passed down from his father.

One down , two and a half left ...

Here is the New hair..... Its nice
Laugh with me, ha-ha.
Right now after the first wash, the red is shining through making it yellowish, give it a few washes. Soon im gonna dö the red..

I have become my own stylist when in action...
Its about the only fun im having on a personal level.

On a different  note, Me and Mr.A , we got it, we got what it takes to make it. We gott to grow and get to know eachother.and that takes time but most of all patience. I love this man dearly...

 
I need to get back in my life... This stone stopping Me from moving i know, just as Jesus, i can and Will push through some how som way... Right now, im still , on the bottom.

This to-do list is being thought about... Constantly. I need to make them, they make Me organised. So what is my plan right now, well

Got to grab a hold of my  life...
I need to

My world, my Buddha and my Christ Will help Me find serenity, 

Ok so enough rambling about nothing. Now its food time...

I guess we wanted yellow for a few days

Family, dont talk, try to talk, no talk

nofamily want to hear from, but hard to maintain a relationship... i need to try harder.

relationship problems, to good to be true, love is scary, but im gonna give him all I got, he is that special someone.

dog dog dog dog.... fur, teeth, claws, fur and ears..

the ex the ex the ex.... ugh OMG... what has happened to the world.

school x3 was plain stupid...

work, love it, love it to much, im escaping to work...from life

finding someone who can help me with my dooms day.

And lets not even think about how ends barely meet...

So right now, things are exhausting.

Im on a "cereal diet", I guess, Special K and R.brand... not on purpuse,but it gets me eating so im satticfied, They are acctually really good..... and I like them, Easy to store, easy to eat. and purrreee Yumie. I love cereal!!!

Well since my ex is determined to destroy my life, it has been a little harder to get out of bed.... My life, my carrer my everything.... is to loose simply due to high strung emotions and make believe actions..

So life right now is stressful and harsh....

OK so I wrote that last night and just as everything else its unfinished.

but i wrote it and it should  be published, given it was written but I dont feel like reading it so its just, as it.

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RIP, loving man,

I met you a few times and your smile, warm heart and open spirit, left footsteps on my heart... Your amazing family is loving, dedicated and passionate..,you Will forever live on in them and with them.

In heaven we Will meet again.

Love missj

It is a man's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways.-Buddha

Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta Get Through This (With Lyrics)

Even death is not to be feared by one who has lived wisely.-Buddha

A jug fills drop by drop.-Buddha

Taylor Swift - Mean

So ive cut all my hair off im creating my own style im evolving.. what about coloring the bottom layer red?

A friend for life

Ready for psychiatric get together breaking the myths of mental health

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Gosh, still dedicated to a special person...

My trying to study,
Its raining and its very wind outside.

Maybe some coco espresso and cereal Will motivate Me to type..... Or well after the meditation of course.

Check out the lovely doggy bruse... I dont know of his strength until it shows .... But if im playing the game i got to stand for the consequences...

Papa Roach - Scars

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Snow ( lyrics )

Getting prepaired

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.-Buddha

We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.-Buddha

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.-Buddha

Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out. - Robert Collier

Dear.ex
I wont block or delete you.
Im keeping you here so you can see how happy i am without you.

8 in English, 8 in Swedish

I cant belive the happiness, the passion the joy and love of the past two months ended yesterday... So quick , so sudden, so unknowing and unwanted could place Me in this State of mind.... All the plans, the thoughts the connection... You set the bar high.....

Well its pizza and the only man im gonna commit to for the rest of my life whom is my confedon, my life and my joy... Atleast i have this huge ball of furr to comfort Me. 

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Act with love,