Kids came by and gave me Christmas spirit whilst giving me hope and joy for next year.
This kids really dont know how blessed i feel for having the honour to have them in my life.
Right now, while everything is falling apart like the ice melting ön this earth , they come with great spirit, im so blessed.
I thank god for my guardian ängel who really and trully loves me and watches over me, he had a gut feeling i was down and persistently called. He knew i needed to cry and be comforted, it is thanks to him i never feel alone.
While im falling deeper and deeper in this quicksand of depression im sure of the love he has for me. Im forever in debt to you my guardian ängel, thank you for caring enough to try to get a hold of me, while everyone else just withdraws themselves.
Thank you god for each given day, i need the strength, i need motivation, i need that light in the tunnel to begin shining so i can stand up.
Being a hard working, single puppy-mommy is so difficult , while batteling life, accepting love and seeking motivation... Cleaning, shopping and laundry all done the traditional way with no time to take off the running/walking shoes...
How people manage to get themselves out of this, is beyond admirable to me, i cant dö it, im so tired of this battle, im so tired of fighting life, im tired of dining everything ön my own, i no longer have the motivation nor energy to fix the sinking boat whilst steering it away from potential harm... Im all out of energy,
Im beyond lost, i dont know myself like i used to...
So people that is it.
Im sad but my kids sure dö bring me back to earth...
And god thank you for sending me än amazing man, help me see through the smoke and guide me in the dark.
Im thankful, very very thankful for my boyfriend. Thank you for everything you dö, the love we share is special.
Oh and the doggy and kissing..
