So another weekend is ending an so is another February!...
Cant say this weekend was as productive as I would want or like it to be. Its been quite painful in all different ways, but as usual I made it thought with a few bumps and bruises.
So Dino is growing and so is my love for this man!
Im not learning all I want to learn from my classes which is completely my own fault, Im doing to much for others and far to less for me and myself. So I have lots of reading to catch up on, which along with training a puppy is interesting.... Motivation is shrinking even though my enthusiasm is strong, how they go together or if they do I dont know. I wonder If a preachers job is as easy as it looks from the outside?? I dont find it at all difficult to help people realize the values and important things in life, but for myself to actually see them in a time "of need" is quite difficult.
I really dont like that people, due to my gender, age or whatever dont listen to my words with as much "ear" as they would if it came from someone a few years older. It bothers me that people dont trust my word.
I love learning, I love fact, I have no problem being wrong admitting fault or saying im sorry I was wrong, cant say that I find it to be the best thing ever, at times, but for the most time, I find it to be something to Respect!
Im what you can say an open and honest person. Most people are not, either they are closed, closed minded, hearted or spirited or they are deserving people, in it for selfish goals. Everyone is selfish at one point or another and it serves everyone right to be one as well.
But I have come to realize that in the world im currently walking in, people always criticizes my words. I can say Im one that constantly and ALWAYS have references. I do not speak about things out and open without being able to refer to where I have heard, seen or read it from. My memory is definitely on my side when it comes to most things.
My purpose in life is to help people, including myself, Im not saying to sacrifice myself, but to help people in the tiny ways I know how. I want to help people advance, think critically and to help people see perspectives. This is what at times is translated as criticism by wear individuals. I want nothing more then for the human race to think, to learn to understand. This world is unfortunately overpopulated with ignorant individuals. Im not saying im not ignorant on topics cuz god knows I am but Im not afraid of listening and taking in others words, I do want to know where and what source "they" use or got from, but Im not against listening to it!
Well lately I have found people to be what I say "stuck on stupid" its definitely not a compliment. People dont listen to me, to my words to my thoughts they dismiss me. Im not gonna let it get me down, I just wont and I dont, but I cant ignore the fact that my emotions are touched by it.
I know one day the world or at least the people in it, will realize that I actually know what Im talking about, that I dont speak to fill the air with "unknowingness" but I actually want and try to help. One day my words will weigh one day my words will have power to the ears of the once that care. I will strive for that, Im fighting a battle day in and day out.
Life is challenging but I am a iceberg, I might not always stand tall to the eye but im deep!
I need to concentrate and read and read and read, oh ok jessica, you got to admit that the medical psychiatry presentation is and has come along completely due to you and all your work for the forensic psychology class has not gone unnoticed and the questions for your caring of people with psychiatric illnesses has come together,.
I guess when most of the work is done on the computer and stored on a USB it is harder to "see" the work thats done, compared to having paper work pilled up.
xoxox
Thank god for my love for the brain and the love my brain has for me!
Cant say this weekend was as productive as I would want or like it to be. Its been quite painful in all different ways, but as usual I made it thought with a few bumps and bruises.
So Dino is growing and so is my love for this man!
Im not learning all I want to learn from my classes which is completely my own fault, Im doing to much for others and far to less for me and myself. So I have lots of reading to catch up on, which along with training a puppy is interesting.... Motivation is shrinking even though my enthusiasm is strong, how they go together or if they do I dont know. I wonder If a preachers job is as easy as it looks from the outside?? I dont find it at all difficult to help people realize the values and important things in life, but for myself to actually see them in a time "of need" is quite difficult.
I really dont like that people, due to my gender, age or whatever dont listen to my words with as much "ear" as they would if it came from someone a few years older. It bothers me that people dont trust my word.
I love learning, I love fact, I have no problem being wrong admitting fault or saying im sorry I was wrong, cant say that I find it to be the best thing ever, at times, but for the most time, I find it to be something to Respect!
Im what you can say an open and honest person. Most people are not, either they are closed, closed minded, hearted or spirited or they are deserving people, in it for selfish goals. Everyone is selfish at one point or another and it serves everyone right to be one as well.
But I have come to realize that in the world im currently walking in, people always criticizes my words. I can say Im one that constantly and ALWAYS have references. I do not speak about things out and open without being able to refer to where I have heard, seen or read it from. My memory is definitely on my side when it comes to most things.
My purpose in life is to help people, including myself, Im not saying to sacrifice myself, but to help people in the tiny ways I know how. I want to help people advance, think critically and to help people see perspectives. This is what at times is translated as criticism by wear individuals. I want nothing more then for the human race to think, to learn to understand. This world is unfortunately overpopulated with ignorant individuals. Im not saying im not ignorant on topics cuz god knows I am but Im not afraid of listening and taking in others words, I do want to know where and what source "they" use or got from, but Im not against listening to it!
Well lately I have found people to be what I say "stuck on stupid" its definitely not a compliment. People dont listen to me, to my words to my thoughts they dismiss me. Im not gonna let it get me down, I just wont and I dont, but I cant ignore the fact that my emotions are touched by it.
I know one day the world or at least the people in it, will realize that I actually know what Im talking about, that I dont speak to fill the air with "unknowingness" but I actually want and try to help. One day my words will weigh one day my words will have power to the ears of the once that care. I will strive for that, Im fighting a battle day in and day out.
Life is challenging but I am a iceberg, I might not always stand tall to the eye but im deep!
I need to concentrate and read and read and read, oh ok jessica, you got to admit that the medical psychiatry presentation is and has come along completely due to you and all your work for the forensic psychology class has not gone unnoticed and the questions for your caring of people with psychiatric illnesses has come together,.
I guess when most of the work is done on the computer and stored on a USB it is harder to "see" the work thats done, compared to having paper work pilled up.
xoxox
Thank god for my love for the brain and the love my brain has for me!
