Studies, school....
If your day started out clear from problems, you can always get completely confused by reading your literature material.
So today was suppose to be the day we got our second assignment, but I guess that’s not the case right now.
I wonder about all these things I’m suppose to focus in on, what am I suppose to learn more about. I have three books (For this class right now) and we are reading from beginning to end and then there is a new computer system to learn, so I can analyze. Even though I spend every weekday studying, every weekend reading, it doesn’t feel like I'm getting any closer to where that 'goal' is. I’m like a coin, one side knows I’m learning (something and some time at least) and the other side feels like I’m just reading, not learning anything, fighting a lost cause. What really puts my panties in a twist is the fact that I don’t have time to review the material as I would like, and even if I’m to review something which of all these ‘important’ things do I choose. What I find interesting and important, isn't what the professor is after.. (So it feels at times)Or…
I wonder if these distance classes are made to mess with people’s minds. I have conversations with me, because I know what I’m talking about and I’m all alone. I can write something in the forum but by the time I get an answer I can’t remember why I was interested in knowing the answer to my own question. I get confused... This class has students from all over the world. And I’m really interested in doing a study on myself to see how "this" will affect me 10 years down the road. Will I be completely crazy, will I not have budged a bit in my cognitive ways or will this some how some way magically just pull itself together with me as the middle man (ok woman). Maybe all this is shrinking my brain, because I don’t feel like I’m learning all that much, most of it is just too damn obvious. Just reading reading reading, and some lectures which also serve ample purposes. To get you to read the material, to review the material, to prepare you for the material or to inform you about things you cant find in the book material.... Well today I read a whole chapter and managed to quit about 15 pgs in to the second one, before my brain and memory started bailing on me. I was so prepared to start the new assignment but, that’s not the case for now at least and today is the lecture-day Monday, woohoo. well well. Isn’t life great? Guess ill work on this damn computer again.
To be an 80’s child I wish I could get away from all these computers, this technology. I miss when we wrote mail and called each other and when people got to meet, talk and discuss. Now the World Wide Web has a monopoly on EVERYTHING.
I had a, or should I say, a few brief phone conversation with my soul-mate today. The GPRS system didn’t like us so we had to fight for the right to speak a few times. Ha-ha well due to our problems we started talking about bird mail. Man oh man; Think about it, what if that was still a possibility. I would love to have a bird come with small messages or you know instead of the mail man. Well now days, you barely get mail any more, you get spammed. I have 5 emails, different accounts different names. No matter how many times you press that spam button for or from that mail address, the next day you have new mail. The funny thing is that once I pressed the spam button on my mom and her account got shut down in a matter of minutes and she has not been able to access it since. Where is the spam button that actually works when you really DO need it? Everything is done by the email now. Gosh my bills don’t even come to my apartment anymore, they go to the internet bank, so what if my internet doesn’t work, and do you have any idea how many late fees I would be stuck with. Ha-ha and the funniest thing of all I think is actually about the Swedish system. See everyone gets paid at the end of the month (yes only once a month) and this is a thing everyone has, everyone. But do you know when they send out your bill, when the company wants their money? Well of course before you have your money. Seriously talk about stupid. This system is built on, “I have access and I the government do check your bank account” you would think they would have, when you get your money and when you can pay your bills go hand in hand…. Guess that would deprive the country and companies of stealing those few extra dollars.
