I swear my hear is so exhausted at the moment, I really dont know any difference between reading herb-rue or reading notmal letters. I read and I read and I have no Idea what I read afterwards and realizing that I make the misstake of trying to read it again and make the same mistake ugh.
Well If I had taken the time to acctually read the assignemnt I wouldnt have spent the past weeks reading about 3 chapters that were not included in this perticulat assignement when I should have been reading something completely different.
Well ill cut myself some slack, it resently I accknowledged that I skim through a text disregarding the actual reading part which is what would be of most use, atleast I have realized it. BUT GOD! IF I HAD ONLY READ THROUGH IT PROPPERLY...... uggghhhh seriously Jessica wake up.
Well so now here I am, in a completely different state of mind then I was at an hour ago. I thought I would have this done by today, but as my reading is malfunctioning and my head is tired, they wont be working as great together as they normally do. But this is life, this is what happens when 3 weeks of drama and unplanned and unwanted things drop down like bird shit from the sky. Im soo soo soo LUCKY that this assignment is OK to hand in late, I havent had one like that ever, so having this flexible thing going on, is quite a relief.
I want to read and write but my head wont let me, maybe I should just take this as a sign and go do something else, cause with my luck Id manage to erase everything.
So around 8:00 Mr.27th or we can call him Mr.A, will come around and we will take the tiny doggy and the big doggy for a walk and then we will make dinner. Sounds lovely, ohh yes indeedio.
This guy isnt someone to settle for, cause he is the one I cant live without. That list I have made in the bast deciding whether to stay in a relationship or leave one has always consisted of pros and cons, the con being often things they lack that I NEED from a man. all the guys have had more more cons then pros, or the once on the con list weigh so strong that one con and 6 pros still wont cut it. But this guy, hes my type, the chemistry is amazing like fireworks by the mer thought of him and clouds of comfort, humor and security when Im around him. He is my list of all the pros and all the Cons, haha that sounds crazy. But he is everything I have ever talked about wanting in a man and every-bitt about HIM as himself as his personality not just the things I like are fantastic.
God does an amazingly good job when matching people up! Thats why we should leave things up to the big man upstairs cause when humans choose, they are blind, so dont listen to other people, follow you heart, listen to your gut. Nothing will go wrong then.
Im so happy right now, I have not been this happy with these feeling since I was in Vegas and I have never felt love like this, never, its like a new planet. Filled with beauty and hope!
